Semper Olivia

Spring Break at last!

2006-03-11T16:20:00.000-06:00

I could not be more excited that Spring Break is finally here. School has been pretty stressful lately mostly because of the people factor and I really need a break. I'm looking forward to just being able to kick back and relax and not have to really worry about anything for a few days. I do have to study at some point during spring break though because I have two tests next week but at least I have lots of time to study which doesn't necessarily mean that I will. I saw the Libertine last night and it was really good. It could really be pretty offensive but it's really good. I'm enjoying my break so far and I can only hope that it gets better. I plan to spend a lot of time just relaxing and hanging out with Praveen. Anyway, it's back to more laundry.

Happy Valentines

2006-02-14T11:27:00.000-06:00

Well, I thought I should actually post for a change. I've been pretty busy at school... but I really shouldn't make excuses. School is kinda fun so far. Discrete is officially kicking my butt but I guess I'll really find out for sure after my first test in that class. Other than that I've just been going to school and hanging out at Praveen's. It's just so much easier after I'm done with class to walk over there and pass out on the futon than drive home and carry all my stuff around. I do go home eventually... just normally not until I'm ready to go to sleep. Anyway, I'm happy it's Valentine's. I think is the first Valentine's where I've actually been dating someone and it makes me quite happy. Not just because I have someone to spend it with but because the person that I'm spending it with means so much to me and makes me happy. Anyway, I should get back to work. Thank you for picking me cactus!

21 Years!

2006-01-14T23:29:00.000-06:00

Well, I know that it's been a while but I've been very busy with school and all and have mostly just been ignoring posting. I did quite well this past semester. I made As in all the classes that I attended and Bs in those that I did not (which I supposed is deserved). I even made an A in physical chemistry which would have never even crossed my mind as possible at the beginning of this semester. Break has been fun. I spent a lot of time hanging out with friends plus I turned 21! w00t! That was a fun time filled with much drinking. Plus I got a coffee maker which is very exciting. Now I can make coffee! The only other news is that I have a boyfriend once again and he is awesome. He's unfortunately been in India since right after finals though so he missed all the fun stuff but I can't wait until he gets back. So bascially once he comes back don't expect to talk to me until the next day. Other than that I can't wait for the semester to start. I'm so excited about finally being back in classes. So long for now!

So I Suck at Pool

2005-10-29T14:18:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm sitting here in the UNT syndicate waiting for the rest of my team to finish playing their games in the tournament since i'm not out :(. I one one game the whole time, that sucks ass. I kept missing the stupidest shots, it made me quite frustrated which of course only made the problem worse. I was starting to make a comeback on the last match but I made a stupid mistake again so oh well... I guess this just needs I need to practice more... a lot more. I can't stand getting my ass kicked, my competitive nature just doesn't hold up to it very well. I hate losing and it irks me to the core. I know it isn't a good thing cause both people I played were better than me, I know that... but it would have been nice to make it past the first round. It makes me feel kinda useless and stupid for even coming.

Anyway, enough depressing stuff... I do have some good news. I have electricity again. I finally got Direct Energy unfucked and have power again so I can actually see in the morning when I'm getting dressed. It's such a hassel to have to deal with that shit when it's there fault that it fucked up in the first place. Oh well though, the power is back... although I think my air is broke now. It seems like it's permanently stuck on heat even when I put it on cool. I'll have to go to the office eventually and get that unfucked too. *sigh* Hassels aren't cool but that's life isn't it? I got two of my two of my four tests back from last week and I did well on both of them so that's groovy. I got the highest grade again on my inorganic test so that makes me happy. At least I'm good at something :). Anyway, I should prolly be working on homework instead of messing around on the internet. bye bye!

Boredom Can Be Good

2005-10-10T17:53:00.000-05:00

Well, even though I was hella bored this weekend I actually got a lot done... which is a good thing. Friday I got to go and play pool up at Rusty's which is quite a lot of fun. I like playing pool up there with my friends... it's good for relaxing especially after a long day, which Friday was. My lab on Friday just straight up wore me out. I had so much stuff to do and I hadn't even eaten yet that day. I finally got to eat at like 5 pm, at which point I was about ready to fall over from exhaustion and hungriness. So I scarfed down my sandwhich that Praveen got me and drove home... during which time I almost fell asleep on the wheel. When I finally got home I just passed out on my couch. I think I woke up when Brenna came home, and when my cell rang, but other than that I was dead to the world for about three hours. After that I was good to go though.

Saturday I had to get up and go retrieve my credit card from Rusty's cause I forgot it and had some Cloud Chamber workshop thing to go to. I left early though cause there wasn't much that I could do that day. Then I had to drive all the way to Highland Park to the Apple Store to get my iPod fixed. That took about 4 hours out of my day. Then I went home and got a little bit of cleaning done. Adam and Stephen came over and we attempted to play poker but none of us really cared about the game so the games would end quickly but it was fun. I went to bed late though so I overslept for church the next morning... oops. Oh well, that gave me plenty of time to finish cleaning and go grocery shopping so I have food again! Oh the yayness. Then I had to teach a chemistry review which was good fun. I truly enjoy teaching chemistry. I don't care if that makes me weird... I like it and that's all that matters. And that's about it for this weekend.

My hip is still killing me from this summer so I think I'm going to have to skip biochem tomorrow morning and get it checked out before I have to runa PFT this weekend. Hopefully that all goes well. Well, adios for now!

Finally starting to calm down a tad

2005-10-04T17:14:00.000-05:00

Well, I finally have some time again now that all my exams and projects are over with. I did okay on my exams. Not stellar but I didn't study that much for them so hopefully I'll do even better on the next round. I've just been so busy with school stuff outside of my classes that I haven't really had time to do much else. The Chem/Biochem Society is becoming a major drain on my time mainly because I have so much to do for it. I work so hard trying to get all the signs posted or trying to take care of all the things that someone else was supposed to have done that I'm starting to get burned out on it. I just wish other people could do something as far as the whole society is concerned. It is a little satisfying though now that people are starting to see that they may have made a mistake in their choice for president but oh well. It's their problem now is how I see it.

My first comp sci program took up so much time last week too and it still never worked quite right. It made me depressed cause I worked really hard on it and spent a lot of time trying to get it to run. I had so many people look at it too and no one could figure out what was wrong with it. I suppose I can't win them all though... no matter how hard I try. I should prolly learn to accept that though... and the fact that I can't do everything. I think that's what has been bogging me down recently. I've been trying to do everything and I just can't anymore. I know everyone seems to think that since I've done it before I'll be fine but I really think all the stress is starting to wear on me again. Normally it doesn't happen until November but it's hitting a little early this semester. Either that or I have to figure out some new way to relax cause otherwise I'm just going to totally stress out before this semester is over. Then maybe I'll stop having all these freaking crazy dreams too.

What a week... and it's only tuesday

2005-09-28T00:20:00.000-05:00

Well, my round of tests is finally over. Micro and biochem went over ok. I didn't do stellar on the tests but well enough to not be totally ashamed. If I had actually studied for micro I might have done better, but oh well, that's the past and I'll just have to study harder next time. I had my inorganic test yesterday and it seemed... almost too easy. I'll find out hopefully tomorrow how I did on it. And my comp sci test today is kinda of up in the air... I either did well or didn't I have no clue and I don't even want to think about it. I stayed up way to late last night coding and by the time the test was over I didn't even care. I hate waiting to code until the last minute... but I choose to study for my other tests instead. Luckily we got yet another extension so my program is now due on thursday before class. Hopefully I'll be able to fix the bug in it before then. It looks like it will be another late night for me again. That made me feel slightly better though cause I was seriously freaking out over my program. I'm calmer now though which is good. I decided tonight I just needed a break from all things school. I need to learn to just relax and not get all crazy sometimes. Either that or invest in some sedatives or something to make me relax. That or I need to stop volunteering to take on more responsibilities. I'm too nice and I tend to forget that I'm uber busy. Either that or I'm subconsciously trying to work myself to the point where I just have to stop and rest. Who knows... but either way I'm going to try and slow down and breathe a little easier... hopefully that will help but we'll see.

The Weekend At Last

2005-09-24T00:46:00.000-05:00

It's been such a long week, it's ridiculous. One of my tests got moved back which is nice. My two tests that were left over on Thursday actually weren't too horrible either. I'm fairly certain that I passed both of them which is great. Biochemistry was making me very nervous but it ended up being a pretty easy test compared to what I thought it was going to be. And micro was really freaking easy. If I had studied I probably could have aced it, but I spent all my time studying for biochem so I spent prolly a total of an hour studying for micro right before the test. I think I'll still be able to pull out at least a B on it especially since our prof curves so that the average is a 75. Considering it's a biology class I think there will be a cure so yay.

Lab today was crazy too, I had like two people spill chemicals on themselves. Luckily they weren't horrible chemicals so they just needed to wash the area for like 15 mins under water and they were all good. I had to clean up broken glassware too. And then I spilled some chemicals on myself cause the bottles they had them in were uber gay. Oh well, it wasn't anything bad so I was fine. Lab always wears me out though. I'm so tired when I get done teaching that class. I went home and just laid down for a bit cause I needed the rest.

I saw Tim Burton's Corpse Bride tonight too. It was really good and I liked it a lot. Johnny Depp rocks. That and we met like these random people at the theater in front of us which is always interesting. My buddy Johnson from MOS school called me on the way home from the movie too which was great. I haven't talked to him in like a month and he's freakin' awesome. He's doing such cool things out in Cali, I'm jealous. He got to jump out of fucking helicopters and shit this week while they were out in the field and he's going on a float in February to Hawaii, Australia, Thailand, and Djabooti. I'm so jealous. It would be so awesome to get to travel to all of those places, especially in the Marine Corps. I'll have to make sure he sends me lots of pics. I can't wait to go out to Cali in December and get to see all those guys again, I miss them. They really are such cool guys and I hope they all come back safely from their deployments. I know a bunch of them are going off to Iraq and I hope they all make it back safely.

I'm going to go read my book and go to sleep. Another long day tomorrow.

Craziness

2005-09-21T21:30:00.000-05:00

Well, it's official. I'm a chemistry major again, yay! I'm very glad about that cause biochem just doesn't seem like any fun anymore now that I'm in the class and I'm totally getting symmetry in inorganic. We were doing examples in class today and I got all of them right, I was very excited.

In other news I'm definitely staying away from Irving from now on. I went to this uber ghetto part last night and it was crazy. People looked at me funny too... I suppose it did look a little odd, this uber white girl riding around with two Indian guys in this totally mexican area. Oh well though, it was an interesting night and I'll now have lots of interesting stories to tell again. My computer science test got moved back too which is very good. Now I only have two tests tomorrow. Now I hopefully I'll have time to get everything done that I need to.

Well, I should continue studying for biochem cause that class is going to kick my ass to begin with. I'm not looking forward to this test.

Time For A Change

2005-09-19T22:08:00.000-05:00

I think I'm going to change majors again. I'm starting to think maybe it's a good idea to go back to just chemistry instead of biochemistry. Biochemistry is just too much like biology... with more memorization. That and I'm finding that the farther I go with chemistry classes the more I enjoy them, especially inorganic. I really can't believe how much I like that class, it's extremely interesting and is the one class that I actually pay attention for a good part of the class which is a feat in itself for me. Physical chemistry is a lot of fun too... but part of it is just because the professor is just hilarious to listen to or watch. That accent gets me every time. I swear a couple times in class I've been about to just crack up laughing and had to try extremely hard to keep it in. But in all seriousness, I really think I'd do better in chemistry anyway, especially inorganic. I really really find the subject interesting and I've always my job when I get older to involve doing something that I find interesting and love doing. And so far in my biochemistry class I don't love it or find it all that interesting. I'd much rather spend my time studying inorganic than biochem... I think that constitutes a sign. Plus I've been thinking and I don't know if I want to go to Chicago for graduate school either. I've been looking at some schools in Cali and UC Berkeley is becoming more appealing. It's weird how your opinions can change from year to year. I still like genetics and the whole forensic thing, but right now I'm really interested in inorganic research and the pharmaceutical industry. I think I might go after a Ph.D. in chemistry (emphasis on inorganic hopefully) and go work in the pharmaceutical industry. It's a different direction from what I was first considering when I started college but I think it's an avenue that I would really enjoy and be good at also. I just hope that I am actually able to accomplish these goals that I keep setting for myself. We'll see how it goes. I better get to some studying since I have three tests on Thursday (boo). Wish me luck.

I Know It's Been Awhile

2005-09-18T15:50:00.000-05:00

I know it's been a while but I felt the need to write on here again for some reason (who know's why). Anyway, this summer was a lot of fun. I spent it in North Carolina doing training for the Marines. I had a really good time and made some really good friends while I was out there. Life has been pretty crazy since I got back. I'm so busy at school it's ridiculous. Here are the classes I'm taking this semester:
Biochemistry I
Inorganic Chemistry II
Physical Chemistry I
Microbiology
C++
In addition to that I am the public relations officer for the Chemistry and Biochemistry Society which takes up a lot of time since I always end up doing a lot of extra things for that anyway. I'm also joining the Society of Physics Students and I'm on the pool team at UTA (not swimming pool, billiards type). It's a lot of fun but it makes for a very busy and hectic schedule. Plus I still have drill one weekend a month. I have three tests this week, all on the same day. Needless to say, thursday is going to suck for me.

My social life has been pretty busy too. I don't think I've had one weekend in the past month where I haven't had a party to go to or people inviting me to come hang out with them. It's crazy really, but I like it too. I didn't use to have many friends and now it seems like I have a bunch which makes me happy. I think I'm cool and I'm glad that other people agree. I do need to start working out more though. I have a PFT in October and I haven't been running as much as I should because my hip still hurts from when I injured it this summer. I should probably go get that checked out again but unfortunately I haven't had very much time.

Well, now that I've bored you with my boring update of all the stuff that I'm up to, I suppose I'll go. I'm going to try and update more regularly so we'll see how it goes.

I like little surprises

2005-04-05T17:43:00.000-05:00

So these past couple weeks have actually been going better than expected. I like it when you think things are starting to go crappy are about to crappy and it just surprises you when they seem to turn themselves around. I got my quant test back this week and I got the highest grade in the class so I was more than pleasantly surprised... I was ecstatic. Especially since before Raj handed back the tests he said it was a train wreck and the average was a 45 and he had a new record low for his tests... a 2! I was like holy crap... I really don't want to get this test back. I ended up with a 96 though so I was uber happy. I also thought that I completely bombed my comp sci test on Thursday so when he handed them back today I was so nervous. I ended up with a 96 on that test too although one person beat me on that test... oh well, I'll do better on the final hopefully.

Also I got a pet fish and I'm so excited. It's a black moor goldfish and he's so cute. I got him a cool tank, a rock, and a pink plant... He looks so cute in it. I wanted to get more fish but I have to get a bigger tank so maybe when I get back after this summer. Well, I have a test tomorrow that I should be studying for.

I Have A New Resolution

2005-03-31T22:39:00.000-06:00

Ok, so after soccer practice I went running with some people that I know. And, well, I'm getting slow again which really bothers me but perhaps this is the motivation that I needed to start working out again. I've been lax a lot anyway and it's time I started kicking it into gear again. Anyway, so I'm going to start running every night (at least during the week) with some friends of mine. Hopefully within a month I can get back up to where I was but we'll see. Either way I need the exercise.

More Quizzes

2005-03-27T22:17:00.000-06:00

I got bored so I decided to do some quizzes, here are the results:

You Are the Enthusiast

7

You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.

You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.

Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.

You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

What number are you?

Here's a quick quiz for ya!

2005-03-26T23:04:00.000-06:00

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES?
several are cream with a blue border, then i have some purple square
ones, and a plasitc one with multi colored daisies.... and i think
there's one more

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING?
Son of Holmes by John Lescroat or something... i have
a slight obsession w/ sherlock holmes for those of you who don't know me all that well

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
don't have one... i feel all left out now

4. YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME ?
Clue or Life... tripp is the only person to ever beat me at clue... le argh

5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE
i don't really read magazies that often... mostly i just read articles
from several different magazines mostly about science and stuff

6. YOUR FAVORITE SMELL :
coconut and vanilla

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL?
bologna or chicken noodle soup... gag me w/ a spoon *shudders*

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN MORNING?
crap... what time is it? did i miss class?

9. FAVORITE COLOR?
pink, black, and blue

10. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR?
pea green

11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
depends on if i hear my phone or hear it vibrate... but mostly two

12. FUTURE (or First) CHILD'S NAME?
i don't know... haven't thought that far ahead but definitely not something typical

13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
music and science

14. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate, duh!

15. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
oh hell yes

16. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
CSI (the original) and Alias

17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
not all the time... most of the time they chill on my floor when i'm sleeping

18. STORMS! - COOL OR SCARY?
cool but scary when they get kinda bad... i love the rain

19. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
'91 mitsubishi mirage... i miss that car, it was my baby

20. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON (LIVING/ DECEASED) WHO WOULD IT BE?
hmmm... i don't know, marie curie

21. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
parrot bay or vodka (long story)

22. BIRTHDAY SIGN:
Capricorn

23. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
yes, i like broccoli and almost all other veggies

24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE?
working in biotech doing research to help find the cure from some
disease or illness or help improve medicine or something along those lines

25. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
dark brown... and it is now, yay!

26. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY?half full

27. FAVORITE MOVIE(S)?
10 Things I Hate About You, Donnie Darko, Wallace and Grommit,
Boondock Saints, Harold and Kumar, Kevin Smith movies, Rudy, the list goes on and on

28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
yes... i used to be a nerd and practice typing for fun when i was
bored... plus it helps w/ coding and stuff

29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?
useles pics, the postcards i get from my dad, and all the letter i
received in bootcamp.

30. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
HOCKEY!!!

32. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR?
being alone when I get older...

33. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU.
(Beth) she's one of my bestest friends and is like my sis! plus you're cool too

34. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD?
mustard

35. HAMBURGERS OR HOT-DOGS?
hamburgers... me like dead cow

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SOFT DRINK?
Dr Pepper

37. THE BEST PLACES YOU HAVE EVER BEEN?
Minnesota, Canada, New Orleans

38. WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER NOW?
It scrolls the few, the proud, the marines... leave me alone, i earned the right

Now you know a little more about me, don't you feel special!

Life = Uber Craziness

2005-03-26T22:56:00.000-06:00

So I've been crazy busy lately... and that's why I haven't updated. I meant to over spring break... but I never got around to it. Oh well, thus is life. School keeps me occupied like all day now and I just joined the intramural soccer team. I play for the Society of Physics Students. It's really a lot of fun and I'm enjoying it. I didn't realize how much I like running around and playing sports. I have like crazy amounts of tests and papers coming up so I don't know how often I'll post and stuff... so, uh, my bad. In other news, I finally saw Pulp Fiction and Napolean Dynamite... both good movies and now I feel more complete. I also saw Wimbledon and Friday Night Lights. I liked the former... disliked the latter. Oh well. I have yet to finish watching Resevoir Dogs but I will get around to it eventually. Anyway, I'm off like a firefly on speed!

Who Else Changes Their Hair Color When They Get Bored?

2005-02-02T21:26:00.000-06:00

Ok, I know I haven't been posting a lot but it's not like a lot of people read this site anyway.... so who's really missing anything, right? Anyway, I have been so busy lately it's ridiculous. I'm pretty much at school from 0900 to 1900 straight and don't really get much of a chance to go home. I suppose I should have expected it though with 17 hours of hard classes and working in the chem clinic again. I'm actually having fun being uber busy though. Plus all of my classes are pretty fun (well, except quant cause that's just broing). I love inorganic chemistry though. We're just studying lattices and lattice energy but Dr. MacDonnell makes it so interesting. just because of him I think I'm going to take Inorganic II even though I don't need it for my major. It just seems so interesting. Other than that I've just been going to class, working, or hanging w/ friends from my classes (which I actually have no so yay!). I've just added more to my plate today though. I found out that the place I used to work is closing and they need help on the weekends until they close at the end of February so starting next Sunday I'm going to be working Sundays from 12-5 again. So there go my Sunday's. Oh well though... a little extra cash is always nice. That makes three jobs now... yay.... anyway, I should get some studying done and listen to those cds my friend let me borrow.... So much to do, so little time (this semester might literally kill me).

Oh.. and about the title, I got bored this weekend so I colored my hair. I'm a brunette now, how fun is that! My hair looks so cute now. When I get a new picture I'll post it. I got it cut to so it's all cute and pretty now. Not that anyone noticed that I cut or dyed my hair at school... but oh well. I like it.

What a week

2005-01-27T22:03:00.000-06:00

So school has been super crazy. I'm at school like everyday until 7 except for Fridays when i get out at 4 (yay!). Plus last weekend it was drill weekend so I was super tired all weekend. Which kinda didn't make sense since all we did was sit around in classes all weekend... really boring. Next drill weekend should be fun though cause we're going to do a live fire drill at Fort Hood in kind of a mock ambush type thing. It should be pretty interesting and informative. Well, we did do a 3 1/2 mile run but it was really really cold and all I had on was shorts and a t-shirt so I was freezing by the end. Anyway not much else has been going on except I really should learn to express my feelings of anger instead of letting them bottle up... cause yeah, it doesn't turn out well and I tend to not make the smartest decisions. Don't feel like going into details now... maybe later. Anyway, I suppose I should start studying eventually... or maybe not, who knows.

Yay For a New Semester and a New Apartment!

2005-01-20T17:31:00.000-06:00

So I'm all moved in now and the DSL is finally up and running! So far I absolutely love my apartment. It's so kick ass. Brenna and I even have a leather loveseat, chair, and ottoman now and our futon is on the way! Everything has been going great so far and I'm so happy to be back in school. I know it sounds weird but I really enjoy going to college and going to classes. Most people complain about college and having to go to classes... but it's fun to me. Meh, oh well, I'm weird I guess. So, let's see, my classes.

Genetics: Seems like it's going to be really fun and I'm going to learn a lot... especially in something I'm really interested in. It's going to be hard and I'm definitely going to have to study a lot but I'm excited about it. There's even someone I know in the class w/ me so that makes it better.

Intermediate Programming: This seems like it's going to be fun too. We're already learning new stuff so I'm excited. Plus I like our lecturer (since technically he isn't a professor), I had him last semester and I really liked that class. Plus again, there are 4 people from my class last semester that are in that class w/ me so I already have a built in study group. Yay!

Inorganic: Ok, I'm really excited about this class. The prof seems uber cool and when he was giving the intro the class sounded so cool. I really cannot wait to start learning this stuff. I do have to do a term paper for the class... but it's on chemistry and hopefully I can learn something really cool and interesting from it. And again, I know 4 people in the class already so that makes it more fun.

Quant: This class I think is going to be kinda boring. We started out w/ SI units and conversions *sigh* but hopefully I'll learn something interesting from it. And I know like 8 people in this class so that should keep me entertained at least.

Forensic Art: Omg... this class is going to rock I think. I'm a little nervous about having to draw and everything but it sounds really fun. I'll learn how to draw faces from skulls and mold the faces from clay onto the skull and all sorts of other interesting things. I have to buy a lot of art supplies for the class, which is going to be expensive, but I think it'll be worth it. And I know four people in this class too so yay! I know at least one person in every class that I'm taking this semester!

Anyway, I'm also working in a lab this semester which is cool. I'm doing computer modeling of molecules which is pretty awesome. I'm learning a lot about quantum mechanics and stuff in the project that I'm working on. Plus my lab is entirely computers and I get to work w/ Linux which is pretty cool. I even have a key to the lab... I feel all important; it's cool. I'll also be working in the chemistry clinic again which should be fun. I'm going to be really busy this semester though. I'll practically be at school all week from 9-7 plus I have to work some on sat. Oh well, keeping busy can be good. Anyway, much reading to do all ready!

Moving!

2005-01-15T07:06:00.000-06:00

So today I move into my new apartment. Yay! The good news is I'm going to have DSL there also but it isn't activated until the 20th. So until then, see ya later!

This Is Odd and Morbid... But That's Me For Ya

2005-01-12T22:04:00.000-06:00

If i was a serial killer i would be Jack the Ripper.

Jack the Ripper, by far the most notorious killer of all time. What would drive a man to kill 5 prostitutes, surgically mutilate the bodies, then stop, to never be heard from again? Most of the murders were pretty much the same, the victim had her throat cut and her abdomen exposed, the intestines were placed over her right shoulder and sometimes a kidney or even the heart had been removed.

Jack the RIpper's murders are still unsolved.

Kill count: 5

Find what serial killer you would be, Take the Serial Killer Quiz now!

Yay, My Birthday Didn't Suck!

2005-01-12T16:36:00.000-06:00

So as a pleasant surprise, my birthday actually didn't suck like always. I had a really good time (thanks to all my buds who came w/ me!). First we (Adam, Bryan, Beth, Brenna, Nathalie, Chris, and I) went to Olive Garden to eat cause it's my fav restaurant... I think mostly cause they give you Andes mints at the end of the meal (those things rock!). I had portobello mushroom stuffed ravioli... omg so good. We had as awesome waiter too. All in all the meal was a lot of fun, I think we may have scared the people in the restaurant but who cares, I was having a good time. The only embarrasing part was when they sang happy birthday to me... I blushed so bad. It was still fun though. Then we were going to go to Simply Fondue for dessert but when we got there no one was there and we had to hunt down the only person left in there so he could tell us that everyone went home for the night already. Since that idea was shot we headed over to the bowling alley on S. Cooper by Rusty's to bowl a couple games. That was so much... I love bowling. I should go bowling more often. Anyway, after we bowled there for about an hour we walked over to Rusty's and played pool for a little while. I finally got home about 12:30. I had a blast.

Anyway, I got some kooky birthday presents too. From my family I got a vacuum cleaner, and tool kit (you know, hammers, screwdrivers, and the lot), a cd rack, mixing bowls, and a bookshelf. From Nat and Toby (Chris for those of you who don't know) I got a lap for my apartment and fromBryan I got a dvd of Harold and Kumar Go To The White Castle, which is must say is hilarious. Thanks to all my friends who wished me happy birthday and hung out w/ me! You really turned my birthday around!

So Tomorrow Is My Birthday...

2005-01-10T21:44:00.000-06:00

Well, it's official tomorrow at 1:44 am I will officially be 20. It's kinda weird to be getting older. Especially now that I'm going to be moving out on my own. Truthfully though I'm not really looking forward to my birthday all that much. My birthday pretty much has sucked for the past few years and I've sort of grown accustomed to it. Who knows... maybe this year will be different. So far my plans are just a bunch of us are going out to eat, Olive Garden I think (it's my favorite restaurant) and then we're going bowling perhaps. I haven't been bowling in forever and I really like it. I'll post later after all the festivities have been completed. I pretty much think the night will be a success if it doesn't suck... which I hope isn't hard to do. Anyway, cross your fingers and wish me luck!

Moving soon hopefully!

2005-01-05T15:44:00.000-06:00

So today I went and turned in Brenna and I's application for our apartment and everything is all set up. All we have left is to get approved and sign the lease. I'm so excited. I really like the place that we're moving too and the apartment is so nice too. I love the set up. The way we're oging to decorate it is going to be so cool too. Our move in date is set for January 15 so yay! It's my birthday present to myself. I've been waiting to move out for like the past year and a half and it's finally happening. I'll finally be out on my own. I won't have to worry about what time I have to be home or having to deal with my parents quite as often. Plus it'll be my apartment. I'm so glad also because I have truthfully run out of room for all my crap in my room. Especially since I got a lot of stuff for Christmas for my apartment. I literally have stacks of stuff in my room because I've run out of places to put stuff. Anyway, here's to a new apartment for a new year!

Happy New Year!

2005-01-02T16:04:00.000-06:00

Well, I hope everyone had a happy new year cause I know that I did. All of New Year's Eve wasn't fun unfortunately (just the morning part) but it definitely picked up. I started by driving back from Kansas city and there was crazy amounts of fog all throughout Kansas. But finally we got home. I started out at Nathalie's and sang some Karaoke (that Karaoke Revolution game for Xbox... strangely addicting) then I went over to Adam's where I watched Bryan, Adam, and Trey play Halo 2 for a little while and then we went and sat out on the balcony and talked for a bit... that was fun. I haven't gotten to do that in a long time. Anyway, after that I headed over to Dave's where I rang in the new year. All in all it was a rather enjoyable experience and thanks to all the people that I got to hang out with. I finally got to bed around 2 but oddly enough woke up at 0730... I really need to work on my always waking up at like 7, it can be rather annoying when I want to sleep in. The only problem is I didn't eat any fish before midnight (Norwegian tradition) so hopefully that won't affect my luck for the new year. I think this year is going to be another good year... at least I really hope so. I wish all of you the best of luck in the coming year!

The Crouton of Christ, Killer rutabagas, and One Hell of a Hockey Game!

2004-12-27T22:43:00.000-06:00

So this Christmas was rather exciting and crazy. It all started with a nice swim at the indoor pool in Detroit Lakes at like 7 am in the morning. But actually I didn't really mind getting up that early. They had a really nice huge pool at the community center there and I had forgotten how much I missed swimming. I was a freaking fish when I was a little kid and I had really been swimming in forever. Then it was time for the Vikings/Packers game, which the Vikings unfortunately lost. Though I didn't find out until after church because I missed the last minute of the game because my family had to go to church on Christmas Eve and the only services were at 5 at the church's nearby. I found out later what the score was when we finally got back home.

The church we went to was interesting. It was your typical middle of nowhere Minnesotan Lutheran Church. It was kinda small and a lot different than the church that I'm used to. Minnesotan people are so interesting. Always telling other people about their medical problems. It was even in the pastor's sermon.. which was really long anyway. She had like 5 different stories in it and I thought it would never end. And then communion was a trip. We walked up there and they handed these little crouton looking things (which I then dubbed the Crouton of Christ) and some wine or grape juice... who knows, it was too sweet to tell. Of course when we got back I had to turn back and tell my parents about my ingenious name for the communion bread, which then set us all to laughing. But normally we laugh a lot anyway... just not normally through the whole service. Oh well, at least we had a good time.

Then we headed back for Christmas dinner. Unfortunately as we were all dishing up, my mother spilled a heap of straight out of the oven, steaming hot rutabagas (kinda like mashed potatoes for you southern folks) on my hand. It took a minute for the searing heat to register but then I flung the rutabagas of my hand and headed for the sink. From there I promptly ran lots of cold water over my hand (which hurt a lot) until my hand was pretty much numb from the cold. I now have a very interesting burn pattern on my hand. I took a picture so maybe I'll put it up later. We opened presents after that. I got some new clothes, glasses, containers, and silverware (for my apartment), two leatherbound books (Grimm's Fairy Tales, and the complete Sherlock Holmes), a new stereo and two speakers for my car, and other stuff that I can't currently remember.

Christmas day was interesting also. We got up early and it was snowing, which was really nice and pretty, especially when looking out on the lake. After we all got showered and stuff, my goddaughter Amanda and I went out for a little walk on the lake. We walked out pretty far until the cracking of the ice started sounding more ominous so I decided we should head back in towards shore. Then we went off to Fargo for a Smith family get together. Always an interesting time with lots of relatives getting drunk and playing cards. Even Junior showed up (I guess he's out of jail now). He's an interesting character... we think he's back on drugs again but no one is sure. I would think he would have to be to be sporting that mullet... ew *shudders*. Anyway, I missed his rant because my dad, brother, uncle, and I left at 5:30 to drive up to Grand Forks because they were starting the World Junior Hockey Championships there at the new Ralph Englestad Arena at UND and we had gotten tickets to go see the USA vs. Russia match through my mom's cousin Mike. It was kinda serendipitous then that we went to the family thing after because otherwise we wouldn't have gotten to go see an awesome hockey game. We had awesome seats to. About ten rows up behind the goalie, it was great. I took lots of pics. And the arena is so nice too. USA won 5 to 4 and the whole game was super exciting. I'm glad I convinced my dad to let us go.

Anyway, now I'm in Minneapolis visiting the other half of my family, which is always an interesting and stressful time, but it has it's fun moments. We had kind of a get together tonight at my uncle dan and aunt kathy's (I swear the woman is our own personal Martha Stewart.. everything has a theme and goes with the theme... it's crazy). It was kind a fun though catching up with part of my dad's family... at least the part that gets along and isn't too incredibly crazy. And it's now above zero so yay. I know I've adjusted to the cold when I walked out and it was only 10 below instead of the 20 below that it had been and was like, hey, this is actually kinda warm. Still can't wait to get back to Texas though where hopefully it'll be a little warmer.

Wow, this was a long post. If you made it through, congrats. And I hope everyone had a fun holiday.

Merry Christmas Eve Eve Day!

2004-12-23T21:46:00.000-06:00

Well, I made it all the way up to Minnesota in one peice... and the only thing I have to say is it's freaking cold up here. I don't think it's been above zero degrees since i got here. Well, maybe it got up to 6 today but I believe currently it's like -20 outside. The odd thing is I feel colder in the not so cold climates. While it's freaking cold up here, it doesn't bother me quite as much as the cold up in Texas. And it's quite amusing that things freeze amazingly fast when left outside here... although it doesn't always work in our favor. The trip actually went much faster than I expected which is always nice with an 18 hour drive. But that does tend to happen when you sleep about a third of the way up. I got a lot of my book read which is nice... I'll post on it when I finish because I don't think I'll know if I like it until then.

Other than that things have been pretty fun up here... at least more fun than I expected them to be. The trip wasn't awful either. Although my family does snore a lot which sucks as far as hotel rooms go. But that's why I sleep in the car during the day because I know I'm not going to get much sleep during the night. Plus I get to spend a lot of time with Amanda, my goddaughter, who is so cute. She's five now and knows so much more. It's been a really long time since I got to see her so it's great. She's like my mini me and follows me everywhere. Although I do get odd looks when we go out to eat or shopping or something. People automatically assume she's my daughter, but that's life I suppose.

Tomorrow should be fun with all the Christmas present opening and stuff. I already know what like half of my presents from my parents are but that's ok. At least I know that I'll like those ones. And probably the rest too. Anyway, I suppose I should go spend some time with my family and stuff, they do like to talk. Merry Christmas everyone and I hope you enjoy your holiday!

Busy Like a Bee.. Well, At Least Most of the Time

2004-12-18T19:49:00.000-06:00

So life has been a little hectic lately, moreso than I thought it would. But not quite as hectic as during the semester which is definitely a nice change. I actually get to sleep in kinda (sleeping in is 0900 for me... normally i get up at 0600). I got almost all of my Christmas shopping done and I'm rather pleased with the gifts I picked out... I hope everyone likes them. Also getting to spend some more time with friends and Phillip... which is nice. Now I don't have to worry so much about the early morning and long day ahead of me.

Well.. except for this weekend. This weekend is my drill weekend which can be long but is enjoyable in the long run. We had a lot of stuff to do today and I got issued so much stuff. I need to move out just to have enough room for all my Marine paraphernalia because at the moment my room is overflowing with stuff. Tomorrow we're doing swim qual, but I still don't know if I have to swim or not. The only sucky part is that tomorrow I have to be there an hour earlier than normal which means that I have to wake up at 0330 instad of 0430. I guess I'll try and go to sleep an hour earlier... although I prolly shouldn't have eaten ice cream now if I wanted to get to sleep earlier.... Oh well, thus is life.

Otherwise, things are peachy. I'm enjoying my much needed vacation. My family and I are heading up north on Tuesday to go visit family and such. That should be a fun trip. I get to see my Grandma and Grandpa and Amanda. I can't wait to see Amanda... she's 5 now and I haven't seen her in a long time. Things to do and such so until next time... bye.

Back to Boredom

2004-12-14T15:16:00.000-06:00

Well, finals have been over for almost a week now. They kinda sucked because I had three on one day, but thus is life. I lived and I think I did decently on all of them. I guess I'll find out when they finally post grades. The one thing I'm extremely glad about, no more organic chemistry! It's gone, at least until grad school anyway.

Since finals are over now, I haven't really been doing a whole lot. I've been completing my Christmas shopping and I'm almost done, just a few more people left... all be it hard people to shop for. Oh, I've also been apartment hunting and I have it narrowed down to two places now that I think I would absolutely love to live in. I cannot wait to move out.. it's weird cause it's so close now, but I'm so excited. I'll finally have a place of my own with a kitchen and a living room... and it'll be mine.. that's just super exciting to me. It's my last step to independence from my parents. Just thinking about it gets me excited... I truly cannot wait until next semester, I'm going to have uber cool classes and be living on my own. Hopefully we can sign our lease in the next week, it'll be so awesome.

I also am going to be starting to work in a chemistry lab up at UTA also. I'm excited about that too. Everything I've been wanting to do is finally happening and it's so awesome. I am going to have two super cool jobs next semester: chemistry clinic tutor and working in a chemistry lab. Hopefully I'll even get my name in on a couple papers. That would be truly awesome.

I've been thinking about this the past couple months or so, and you know what, I really like UTA. I don't care what other people say, I really enjoy it here and I'm having so much fun and love all of my classes. I truthfully don't think that I would be happier anywhere else. I'm just glad to be happy where I am and enjoying everything that I do. I don't know if in high school I ever saw myself possible as being this happy, but I truly am. Maybe that sounds all mushy and stupid, but I don't think so. Happiness is important and I'm glad I've finally found it and thought I would share it.

This is hilarious

2004-12-06T11:55:00.000-06:00

Ok, so this is just a quick post, but I had to post this. My dad sent this to me, and maybe it's just cause I'm a chemistry nerd, but I find it absolutely hilarious.

The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University of
Washington chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is,
of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.

As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over. So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you, and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A"

School Is Taking Over My Brain

2004-12-04T21:41:00.000-06:00

So I thought I would do a quick update because I haven't updated in a while. Mainly that is because it's the end of semester and it's been crazy with the tests and stuff but it's almost over. Come Thursday it'll be Christmas break, hell yes! I cannot wait but until then i'm pretty much confining myself to my studies so I can do well on all of my exams.

In other news, I had probably the weirdest dream I have ever had. I dreamt that I was a DNA helicase (you know, the enzyme that pretty much unzips DNA so that it can be replicated) going along through all these different cells unzipping DNA. The weird part was that when I was unzipping the DNA, I could see the people's memories... it was uber freaky. I went through a whole bunch of cells... of different people too. It was so weird. That was the point that I've decided perhaps I think to much about science. That and today when my mom was making salad dressing and I couldn't help but try and write out the reaction in my head that would take place between sugar and vinegar. Yes, I know, I'm a chemistry nerd... but it's not really that horrible. At least I'm passionate about it and am doing something that I love. Chemistry and science are great and I'm glad that I get to pursue a career in them.

Anyway, time to finish studying my poor little head off. Let's hope that this pays off.

Ok, maybe Thanksgiving doesn't suck so much...

2004-11-28T13:41:00.000-06:00

So the rest of this weekend has kinda made up for the suckiness of actual Thanksgiving. Don't have much time so I won't go into detail. Basically the concert was a lot of fun even with the random burlesque strip show in the middle. And I had fun yesterday too. But unfortunately I have my last organic exam and my computer science lab practical tomorrow so I have to study. The consolation here is that I have 2 weeks of school left, oh the yayness.

Never really liked Thanksgiving anyway...

2004-11-26T09:23:00.000-06:00

Well, so Thanksgiving was yesterday. It started out so nice and I thought it might actually change my mind about Thanksgiving but in the end it sucked anyway. That's what I get for thinking things will change. Anyway, I got to sleep in which is nice, I so rarely get to do that now. I got up at 10 which is pretty late for me but it felt nice to sleep in for a change. I was going to watch the parade on tv but my mom and dad made my brother and I go out and pick pecans out of the backyard. I thought it was going to suck but it actually didn't. It was prolly one of the better parts of the day. I grabbed a couple lawn chairs and my brother and I sat down and picked the pecans around us moving when we ran out of pecans. It was actually kinda nice cause I got to sit down and talk to him which I haven't done in a while. I mean, I'm his big sis so I should try and be there and talk to him and stuff but we just haven't for a long time, at least not without my parents around. So I guess it's just nice to rekindle communication with my little bro.

Anyway, so then we watched the dog show that was on NBC, which I know is odd, but I like looking at all the dogs. They're all so cute! I want a pet again so bad, esp a puppy. That would be awesome, but unfortunately not likely to happen. Maybe I'll get another fish or something for Christmas or my birthday. I like fish. And then we ate Thanksgiving dinner which was good. It had all my favorite foods: green bean casserole, yams w/ the little marshmallows, those cool rolls, and rutabegas (i'm not sure if that spelling is right). No lefse though, but I'll have some for Christmas so that's ok.

I guess the crappy part was that I was supposed to hang out with my friend but she never called me at all and that just kinda made me angry. Prolly cause it's not just this one instance, but it's been happening all semester and I just feel like I'm losing my best friend. I don't like that feeling but I suppose it's bound to happen at some point... I just thought that point would be farther down the road. It's hard to keep calling and noone being on the other end. Esp considering that I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately, but luckily Beth and Brenna have returned so I've had some people to talk to and I thank them for that. It's just hard when you feel a friend slipping away and know that nothing you're doing is going to bring them back. I guess the best thing to do is just accept it and move on. And I would like to thank the person I talked to about this last night, it did help a bunch. Anyway, so that made me angry and sad, which isn't a good feeling and kinda ruined my Thanksgiving. But I had a good run this morning too. Running seems to help cure frustrations also. I don't know why, perhaps it's the whole runner's high thing, but it just seems to make the world seem not quite as bad when you started running. That and you can take your mind of everything and just run. The sprint at the last 1/16th of a mile is I think the best part and the part I look forward to the most.

Anyway, hopefully today will be better, at least it's starting to look that way. Beth and I will prolly be hanging out and then I'm going to a concert tonight with some new friends which should be awesome. Perhaps that will brighten my day.

Craziness

2004-11-21T21:19:00.000-06:00

Well this weekend was crazy. No reason to necessarily go into that many details, let's just say my dad found out about my tattoo. He seems to be doing better now though, at least he's talking to me.

I also got my ipod mini in the mail on Friday. I was so excited. It's so pretty... and pink... and small. I've already put all of my cds on it and I have almost 2 gigs of music on it.

My grandparents surprised us by showing up for my mom's 40th birthday. I was so surprised and it was great to see them. My grandma and grandpa are really actually quite cool and I love hanging out with them. I rarely get to see them to so it was nice to get to spend some quality time with them. They left today after we had lunch with them. I suppose the consolation is that we are going to visit them for Christmas this year. We won't be up there very long(we're only going for 10 days I think) but at least I get to go visit them again. And I'll get to see my goddaughter Amanda again. I haven't seen her in a year and a half and I miss her so much. She's so adorable and grows up so fast. She's 5 now and in kindegarten and has grown up so much. I cannot wait.

Anyway, I have a bio test tomorrow so it's time to study.

Minis and Cults

2004-11-16T21:38:00.000-06:00

Today has been fun... well, it ended up being fun. I woke up later than I hoped to this morning... my alarm didn't feel like going off. Then I went to the mall and purchased new running shoes, running pants, three long sleeve shirts, and a hoodie. All in all I'm extremely happy with my purchases. Then I had lunch at Schlotsky's (sp?) with my parents and it was off to work. Work was pretty boring. We didn't really have a lot of people there and they all kept asking the same freaking questions... it was driving me a tad crazy. Finally it was time to go to comp sci which was fun as usu. After class I went to Fry's to find a present for my mom for her birthday. She's so hard to shop for... I never know what to get her.

So, I've also joined this thefacebook.com thing. So far it seem pretty cool but we'll see as time goes on. Right now I only have one friend (thank you Thomas!). Perhaps it's a cult... I doubt it but it's funny to imagine. Maybe as time goes on I'll make more friends and meet some new people. New people can be interesting.

In other news, I'm getting an ipod mini (the pink one)!! I ordered it today and it should be here in 5 days. I'm so excited I could dance or something that equally expresses that level of joy. The best part, I got a student discount! I have to admit... maybe apple isn't so bad. Not that I'm converting, but they do have their good points. They came up with the ipod and ipod mini... how evil can they be?

Dancing the night away

2004-11-14T19:42:00.000-06:00

Saturday was a long but in the end fun day. I had to get up super early so I could get to drill on time. I ran a PFT at drill which went okay, wish I had done better but oh well. Then until noon we did absolutely nothing... it was sucha waste a time but thus comes the favorite Marine Corps saying, "Hurry up and wait". Luckily we were let go and noon to go get ready for the ball so I went and got my hair and nails then and before I knew it it was time to leave for the ball. All in all it was a good time. The interesting thing was even though most of the people requested beef we all magically ended up with chicken but so goes it. Thanks again to Adam for going with me, I had a great time!

Anyway so today I decided that I needed an ipod mini. So I'm definitely ordering one (and a pink one at that!) which is nice because now my parents don't have to spend a lot of money buying an mp3 player for me for Christmas. Oh, and we're getting new phones too, yay! I really love the phone I'm getting too. It's so badass.

In other news, I have three finals on December 8, how much does that suck? But I suppose I'll live. I also registered for my spring semester classes and I cannot wait, spring semester is going to rock. And my classes are:

Quantitative Chemistry
Quantitative Chemistry Lab
Inorganic Chemistry I
Genetics
Advanced Programming
Forensic Art

It's 17 hours which is a lot but they all sound so fun. Plus I'll finally have people that I know in my classes which is nice. I won't have to make all new friends in my classes again. Sometimes it's nice to make new friends but I prefer to have people I already know in my classes with me so I have someone to talk to and stuff. Anyway, homework is calling my name.

Ice Skating Rocks!

2004-11-12T22:46:00.000-06:00

So today was an okay day. It started out with a test in Organic Chemistry... we'll see how I did on that on Monday. Then lunch w/ Nat, Toby, and Andrew (i think that's his name....) which was greatness. I also wore my new shirt today that I got from think geek, it made me happy. Anyway, then was Bio lab which was insanely boring... seriously. I did the crossword in the paper and finished it halfway through the class... needless to say that class sucked. Then it was off to work in the Chem clinic which is always fun. We were really bored today... and everyone was acting a tad hyper. So we played with cards and then played hangman on the board for a bit but mainly sporadically since some people did require our help. Anyway, then I came home for a bit and then I went ice skating w/ Adam, Beth, Shawn, Brenna, and Brenna's sister. It was great fun except for the fact that we only got to skate for like 30 mins... oh and I almost lost my purse which wasn't cool.

And now I'm going to go to sleep because I have to be up early tomorrow for drill which should be interesting. I have to run a PFT and then who knows what. But tomorrow night is the Marine Corps Ball which promises to be much fun. I can't wait. Thanks to Adam for agreeing to go with me! Ok, bye.

It's just nice to yell sometimes

2004-11-11T18:51:00.000-06:00

Ok, for my first post this is going to be a rant, but I don't really care. It's what it's for right? Well, since the secret is about to be out, here it is: yes, I have a tattoo! Ok, now get over it. I figure it's ok to actually put it down since my parents are now going to know, but this is really the basis of this post.

I'm tired of being yelled at and judged by my parents for the things that I do cause really they actually ended up pretty well off when it comes to me I think. Personally, I think they pretty much lucked out with me cause I could've turned out much worse than I did. I mean seriously, the things that I do I do not think are that bad. All week I work really hard at school. Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday my day starts at 6:00 am. I get up, work out, eat breakfast, get ready for school and then I'm at school from 9-7. Tuesdays and Thursdays I get a little bit of a break by only having one class and work for about 4 hours but I still work hard studying and with work. When I eventually get home I normally spend my free time studying or maybe watch tv for a little bit but that's about it. Fridays and Saturdays are my days to just let go and have some fun finally. I don't think that's so awful. It's not like I'm doing anything crazy either. All I do is hang out with my friends, maybe go see a movie or go out to eat or something. I don't go do drugs, drink, or have wild, crazy sex.... we sit around and talk. My parents should know me better by now.

I could understand if it was interfering with my responsibilities... but it hasn't. I still do everything that I am supposed to. I haven't missed a class except when required to because of drill. I still go to church with them and teach my sunday school class. I'm still making good grades... I don't see what the big deal is. I would think they would be happy for me. For the first time in a while I'm acutally happy and enjoying what I'm doing. I love my classes, they're awesome. I actually have a social life now. I hav epeople that want to hang with me and do every weekend. And I'm enjoying doing that. For the first time I'm actually happy in the long term... not just momentary glimpses of happiness. I guess it's just hard for me to see how that is so wrong.. but whatever. *end rant*

Perhaps I'll post more later when I'm in a better mood but for now that's it. Not very happy for a first post I know, but it needed to be said.